Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Do you believe?

In God?

Do you believe in your own God or do you follow a particular religion?

For my whole childhood, I had parents of different religions. My dad was Lutheran and my mom is Catholic. I think I was baptized in the hospital when I was a couple of hours old as they didn't know if I would make it or not. I never had to go to religion classes, confirmation or anything of the like. I would occassionally go to church with my friend if I had spent the night with them, or with my aunt and uncle if I was staying with them. But unless it was a wedding or a funeral, my parents didn't take me to church. Nor did they force religion on me as a child. They always told me that I could decide, for myself, what religion I wanted to be associated with and when.

I didn't get married in a church, quite the opposite. I got married in my sister-in-law's house by a court commissioner right before Christmas of 1992. DH and I were going to run away and get married as we couldn't afford a wedding, but family (mostly his) got wind of this and offered to host a small wedding. So we did that instead, glad they suggested it.

When DH and I had our daughter, we were asked if we were going to baptize her. DH and I decided that we wouldn't. And not for the reasons you are expecting. There was SO much red-tape to go through since I didn't "belong" to a "certain" religion, I would have to have taken some kind of classes and such. All that for someone to bless her?? I didn't want that and DH was agreeable to that. So, none of our 3 children are baptized as of now. I've always told the kids that it was their choice to associate with the church and that NO ONE should influence your decision and whatever that decision is, so be it.

Years later, I found myself with 2 sick parents. My dad and my father-in-law. For some reason, I prayed for their health and well-being. I prayed a lot. But in the end, God decided that their time was done on this earth and took them home. Today is the 8th anniversary of my father-in-law's passing. And I miss him. He would have been 89 years old. We all miss him. But part of me wonders if I had prayed harder, longer, used bigger words, would they still be here?

Recently, if you been reading my blog, know that I've been sick. And I mean sick. Almost, let's admit Kelly into the hospital sick. It took me almost 8 weeks to get better and I'm left wondering - did those prayers that my husband's family work? and if so, why did it take me so long to get better??

So, do you believe in the power of prayer? a higher power than your own?

Think about it.

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Do you ever.........

wonder if God is giving you more than you can handle at any given time?

This has been a very frustrating, tiring, and exhausting year for us.

First it was the whole bullying and depression issues that my middle child was experiencing resulting in counseling and removing him from school to homeschool him. It was a hard decision to homeschool him but in the long run it turned out for the best. He's learning better and faster than if he was in school. He's talking about returning to the school system next fall for high school. I hope he goes. I think it would be a good thing.

Then it was Sam and him being sick. This fall we finally got a diagnosis of Daily Chronic Headaches. Good thing right? You would think so. But Sam isn't responding to treatment so with that being said, we are going to have additional tests and possibly new medication to try.

The school is being stupid about Sam and his health situation. Now, since the school nurse and psychologist looked at his medical records, seem to think that Sam is depressed. I don't know what to think about this. His doctor has told me time and time again that Sam isn't depressed and now the school personnel think he is?? My children know about my depression as I'm very open about it and don't want them to think anything bad of me. But really, NOW they are FIRST mentioning that MAYBE Sam is depressed???

I had to temporarily drop out of school. It was a hard decision to make but a necessary one. I'm also rethinking about my major. I'm not real confident in the web design industry and don't know what the job prospects would be when I finish the school work. I don't know what I want to study now. And for now, I'm letting it go.

Then I was incredibly sick for almost 7 weeks. I had 3 rounds of antibiotics, 2 full courses of steroids, pain killers and anti-nausea medication. Also, throw in a trip to the Emergency Room for good measure and you got my life. Exciting isn't it??

There also seems to be the lack of money lately. I don't know where we went wrong or if we did, but there isn't enough money lately to make all the bills. That sucks big time. With that being said, Christmas is going to be just a regular day for us. Yes there will be something for the kids to open on the morning of and yes there will be a dinner in which my mom will come over for, but other than that, nothing is going to be different. Just not in the Christmas mood. Oh how I wish for my dad to be here to give me some words of wisdom.

With all that has/is happening in the family, do you understand the first line of this blog-post??


Friday, November 26, 2010

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Almost human again............

Well well well. I know I went MIA and I'm sorry. But I've been incredibly sick since the 5th of November and just now feeling human again. I had a massive skin infection that required 2 full rounds of antibiotic, anti-nausea medication, 2 refills of Tylenol 3, a course of Predisone and a whole lot of water. Throw a trip to the Emergency Room in there and you've got my life up to now.

I've spent so much time in bed that I'm really sick of seeing it. The couch is looking more and more inviting these days. Who's been doing laundry you ask? Well, Nichole has when I instruct her which load needs to be done and remind her that they need to go into the dryer before they smell. Lovely mental picture huh? Otherwise, nothing and I mean nothing has been getting done around here. I just don't get it. There are capable people in this house who could empty and refill dishwasher, fold towels, pair up socks, I could go on. BUT NO, no one seems to do this.

Oh and let's just forget about Thanksgiving. I was in a Benedryl-induced sleep for most of the day as I was itching something awful. I had just enough energy to run to the Chinese place the day before and get food. So we ate leftover Chinese food. Fine, don't care what we eat as long as we eat SOMETHING.

Darling, wonderful husband worked 13 hours on Wednesday, and is working overtime today. I have NO clue when I'll see him. I also think he has to work Saturday and Sunday. He's not sure yet and I'll find out when he comes home. He is my usual grocery shopper and I think I'll have to take over this week. I hate grocery shopping. It's the looks I get when people see my hands and then proceed to stare at me. It bothers my kids as well. I will never get used to people staring at my hands or arms. Never!!

I really want to start on the project that I signed up for on a email list for a BlackBird Stocking. This should have been done weeks ago, but I've been so sick that I couldn't see straight. I know my partner understands, but I don't want to disappoint her. I will get it done. I promise. Just bear with me.

I hope you had a wonderful Thanksgiving and I'll post again soon. I hope. :)

Sunday, October 31, 2010

Where have I been you asked?

I've been here, just not blogging. There has been a lot going on since the beginning of September that I'm not sure I can remember it all.

Sam (my youngest kid who's 10) has been telling me off and on since April of this year, that he has a headache. Okay, I give him Tylenol/Advil/Motrin and it doesn't seem to help. Go to family doctor and he tells me that these headaches are migraine headaches and that they should go away on their own with rest. Nope, they don't. Register Sam for school and all is fine ( or so I think it is, but Sam isn't telling me that he's not feeling well) and goes to school the first couple of days. Then complains that his head hurts and his stomach is upset, so I keep him home for a few days or so. Take him back to the doctor and he prescribes a medication for Sam to take. Sam is still missing school at this point and the school is threatening legal action if I don't get a medical excuse for him.

Called his doctor, explain what is happening and then the doctor referred us to a pediatric neurologist. Make the appointment, no biggie. We go and the doctor (who is really nice and patient)and gives Sam the once over, talks to Sam about his headaches, leaves the room and comes back and tells us that Sam has Daily Chronic Persistent Headaches to which there is no medication to kick the headache out of the system. Boo :( Get the medical excuse and arrange for Sam to have some necessary testing to make sure nothing else is going on with him (all tests came back fine YIPPEE)

The school set up a educational 504 plan for Sam for school which includes online schooling for those days he cannot make it to class, a modified schedule for him on the days he makes it to class but cannot stay the entire day and if Sam makes school (the full day 8-3) for 3 weeks in a row, the modifications go away. Which is fine, we all agreed with it and Sam understand that. But he hasn't made it to class since that meeting as his headaches are pretty bad and with him being nauseous, I don't know if he could make it to school, let alone stay there when he feels so badly.

I had to drop out of online school for the time being. It was just too much to deal with at the time. I'll think about going back again at a later time. When you ask? Who knows. All I know is just not now. I need to get Sam doing school work and homeschooling Nathan has become a full-time job in itself.

If you read my previous post, you will notice that we got a Lynxpoint Siamese kitten named Sheba. She's such a sweet cat, loves to play (with our toes in the middle of the night of all times. ) She's 5 months old and likes to play with Leo (the other Siamese cat in the house). Yes there is some hissing and growling, but that is to be expected and I'm not concerned about it at this point. She loves to snuggle and I'm glad she does as our other Siamese cat Maddy used to do that with me.

Husband is still working up a storm but the overtime has stopped for the time being Boo:( I know I shouldn't get used to that extra money but it was nice while it lasted. Today hubby is canvasing the neighborhoods to "Get Out The Vote" for the elections on Tuesday and I have a funny feeling that the person I want to win, won't. That sucks. But it's life and I'll get over it. Hubby seems to enjoy doing this so why not.

Nichole is doing well in her classes. She still wishes that the person who did scheduling of classes over the summer didn't put her in Woman's Lit. She hates it with a passion. She was SO stressed about the debate in the class that she was making herself sick. She's fine now, but still, she's only 17 and she doesn't need to put this kind of stress on herself. She's enjoying her Junior year and her friends and that's important.

Other than that, nothing is going on. You think I've been a tad stressed lately?? LOL Hopefully things will calm down soon and I can get back to either reading or stitching OR both!!!

Gotta run, laundry is calling me............

Monday, October 25, 2010

Think she's cute???

So did we, she's hiding under our master bed now and will only come out when it's quiet and hubby and I are in bed. She's my birthday present from my kids and hubby.


Thursday, October 7, 2010

Guess Who's Birthday It Is???

Happy Birthday Nichole!!!!!!!!!!!! I cannot believe that you are 17 now. I can remember the day you were born like it was yesterday. I'm so proud of you and love you very much!!!


Thursday, September 30, 2010

Me? Perfect??

I was reading on a couple of other blogs tonight about being perfect. I so can relate to those people who have written about it. This thing we call parenthood is difficult and I so wish someone had a manual to give out when you have children, it would make it so much easier.

I have my doubts about a lot of things. Like am I a good wife?? Am I doing the right thing by my children?? Is Sam going to get better? Why doesn't that damn pile of laundry go away EVER?? I could go on and on and get the picture.

I really don't have any friends that I can confide in. I have a hard time making friends, I don't know why but I do. And the friends I do have seem to think that I'm all put together and have the best of things. I DON'T!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I just know how to hide things and I hide them well.

We all have problems with this and that and I get that. I just want someone to listen to me and not judge me or make the problems I have seem less than what they really are. It's hard to talk about these things with my husband because he has his own stressors and I don't want to make him miserable. Plus the things that are bothering me, they are bothering him too and neither one of us know how to fix it at the moment.

I wish someone could come to my house and clean it, do the laundry (and I mean ALL of it) and make dinner. But the reality of it is, it's up to me. I know I'm not perfect and sometimes I feel like I have to keep up with the Jones' but again reality sets in and I know I fail miserably.

There are things that I can do or in control of and those are the 3 kids I brought into this world and to me, they are perfect. I can love my husband to no end and to me that's perfect and I know (even though he doesn't say it much) that he loves me and that's perfect.

Everything else will just have to be the way it is until I can get around to it.


Thursday, September 16, 2010

Random Thoughts

Here it is, almost 4 pm in Wisconsin and my mind is wandering. So the following are things that are floating in my head and stressing me out (what else is new right??)

-waiting for primary doctor to call back and advise me what to do about Sam and school
-not knowing why Sam is getting migraines
-how far behind is he really?
-hoping the online mortgage payment goes through tonight
-wondering why DH doesn't want to go to the pediatric neurologist appointment with me
-wondering if I'm homeschooling Nathan properly, I feel that I am, but again it's early in the year
-when is bedtime for me?
-why is the Advil I took for the stress headache not working?
-is Sam ever going to get better?
-is the dishwasher ever going to get emptied?
-am I ever going to catch up on laundry?
-why am I not more organized?
-where is "me" time or is that an impossible dream?
- crap, I forgot about dinner. Take out pizza it is
-Nichole is mad at me because Sam took sick days this week.
-does DH even care about my concerns anymore?

I need a vacation or some answers pretty damn quick. I cannot take this much longer, I'm going to burst.


Sunday, August 29, 2010

It's my birthday today!!


I'm not sure if I should be happy or not. It's not like I turned 40 this year (that's next year), I'm 39 today. I should be happy that I have a wonderful husband, kids, mom and bunch of extended family. Don't get me wrong, I am happy for that. It's such a weird feeling. I got this way before my 30th birthday too. Maybe it's the fact that I'm getting older and hopefully wiser. Maybe it's because I miss my dad and he's not here to celebrate with me. I dunno. All I know is that I'm grateful that God let me wake up today to celebrate another birthday (or the anniversary of my birth as my dad would say).

Whatever the day brings, I'm happy.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Wednesday, August 25, 2010

A new school year about to begin!!

Well here it is, August 25th and some one rude reminded me that Christmas is 4 months away. Yuck!! I don't even want to hear about Christmas until AFTER my husband's birthday in early November. Pet peeve of mine

Anyways, school is about to start. It starts Sept 1 for Sam and Nichole and the 17th for Nathan. Why the delay with Nathan you ask? I'm homeschooling him and I haven't gotten all his supplies ordered and the ones I do have ordered are on backorder until about that time. But I've got him writing a report on a subject for one of his chapters in Social Studies, so I am doing something.

Sam is excited to go back to school. This year he gets to wear an I.D. and play the cello. Nichole just wants something to do. She will be a junior this year and she can't wait. I'm glad to see some of my kids excited about school, I just wish Nathan was more into it. Maybe he will as we start this new adventure in our lives. And I hope it works out for the better. I don't want Nathan going through what he went through last year ever again and if this is the way we teach him, then so be it. I can do this, I know I can and I will succeed!!!!!!!!!!!!

The above picture is what I think I will use for Christmas pictures (unless a better one is taken at my nephew's wedding on Saturday.) this year. I just wish that the boys were actually smiling with teeth, not this crap that they are pulling. Oh well, I tried. I also got to use Nichole's fancy camera. It's cool. I'm beginning to think that I need one. Nah, I'll just borrow hers when I want "nice" pictures.


Friday, August 13, 2010 artist

This is my daughter, Nichole and she was at her aunt's house painting for a charity project in Door County. I'm really proud of what she has accomplished in the few years that she has been concentrating on art and photography. One of her pictures she took for a class this past year is being shown at the State Fair in the Expo Hall. She didn't win a thing for the picture, but I'm proud none-the-less.

Thought I would share her in "action", rather than just tell you about it.


Friday, August 6, 2010

August already??

I cannot believe that it's August already. Where in the world did the summer go? I for one, will be happy to see the upper 80's and lower 90's leave and take the darn humidity with it. Today is beautiful, a little cloudy, but temps are nice and humidity is lower. My type of weather.

The State Fair has started and my daughter Nichole is working for the first time at the fair. I'm not sure what she's doing but when she came home last night, she went straight to bed and I talked a little to her this morning and she was still tired (and a bit sunburned). I haven't heard from her yet today so I assume that all is well. I cannot believe my kid is old enough to earn her own paycheck.

I also registered 2 out of 3 kids for school. They suck you dry of money I tell ya. Now all they have to have done is their pictures and get their schedules and that's it. School starts Sept 1, so does Nathan's homeschooling. I'm just glad we didn't have to put the registration fees on a credit card this year. It's sucky when we have to do that.

I've lost my stitching mojo. I'm not sure where it went or when it went but it's gone. I'm tempted to sell my stitching patterns but I know better. It will be back (I hope!) So for right now, I'm concentrating on school and reading fun books in my spare time. I also hope to take Christmas card pictures with Nichole's very expensive camera that I bought her. I'll post those pictures when I take them. It won't be anytime real soon, as I promised Nichole that we would do them AFTER she was done with the fair (August 15th).

Have to run and stop a fight in progress.

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

I'm still here. It's been hot and yucky out for the last week or so, so I've been stitching away at a exchange project and nope I cannot show you until she's received it. But it's a BlackBird Designs stocking that I stitched, boy do those stitch up fast!! I just might have to do another one for myself before too long.

School is going well. I hate Ethics class. I can't wait until it's over but my other class is fun. I get to put my computer knowledge to work finally so it's fun. I just wish Ethics was fun, don't get me wrong it's informative, but a bit boring and such. I'm trying my best and I guess that's all I can ask for these days.

Everyone is doing well. The kids just got back from Door County where they had a blast! And some how I got pink eye while they were gone and it's not going away!! If it doesn't go away soon, I'll have to visit my doctor (oh goodie! NOT!)

Otherwise, everything is good. Same ole stuff different day. I better run as Sam wants the computer to play games on again. Typical 10 year old if you ask me.

Talk to ya soon

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Starting school....

I thought this would be easy. Take a couple of classes in my "spare" time and have no worries. WELL WELL, let me tell ya, it's not easy. I found that there is a lot of required reading a bunch of weekly papers due and so on. I don't know why I thought this was going to be easy. I need to get a schedule of things to get done by my kids and let them know that after a certain time in the day the computer is mine. Right now I'm taking an Ethics class and a Information in the Online age class and I'm finding that the Ethics class is not as easy as it seems and the other general class is just stuff I know but putting it to use.

As far as the rest of the house is concerned, 2 of my kids are going on a 7 day vacation with their aunt and I'll have one of the kids home with DH and myself. Then all three are going to a different aunt's house for about 5 days on a farm, so DH and I will actually have the house to ourselves, if all works out the way it's planned.

The weather here in Wisconsin has been a little hot and humid but now a cool front went through and the weather is cooler than normal with little or no humidity. I like this weather, it's perfect.

Hope you all have a good week and I'll check in when I can. Hopefully with a stitchy update.


Wednesday, June 16, 2010

old pictures...

While scanning some old pictures onto a SD card recently, I came across a couple of pictures I want to share with you all. The top picture is a picture of my grandfather holding his "great" one, my son, Sam when he was almost 2 months old. Sadly, my grandfather passed away about a week after this picture was taken and we think this is the last known picture of my grandfather alive. I'm so grateful that he got to see Sam and hold him (even if his health was failing)

The second picture is of my boys when they were 4 and 1, in our old house. My DH had Nathan climb the tree and I was outside with Sam and DH put Sam in the tree with Nathan and I got a bunch of cute pictures of them. But this is my favorite and I have NO clue what Sam is laughing at.

Thought I would share

Friday, June 11, 2010

Framed piece + Sam

Here is my framed piece of a Black Bird Design (I cannot remember which leaflet but it is still in circulation I believe) that I stitched a while ago and just now had the money to get it framed. Sam (my now 5th grader) is holding it.

A vent of sorts

Here it is, a pretty day in June and I'm sick of people knocking things down that I want to do.

As I mentioned in a previous post, I have a neighbor that is going back to school for something in the medical field. I decided earlier this year that I would go back to school to learn a new career and try to get a job in that field to help DH with finances. Things are so tight here it's not funny and I cannot seem to say "NO" to my kids (me bad I know!).

So I tell this person that I'm going back to school for IT/Web Design and she proceeds to tell me that those types of jobs are being outsourced and I should go into a different career path and go into the medical field. Now, if you know anything about me, I'm the medical guinea pig for dermatology and don't want to work in that field. So, she had me second guessing my career path and it took my wonderful DH to tell me that she needs to mind her own business and if that is the path she wishes to take, then that's her choice but it's not necessarily mine.

I'm supposed to start my "real" classes (opposed to the workshops that I've been taking now and really not taking them seriously) in the next couple of weeks and I cannot wait. I'm dying to understand what goes into web design and I think I can succeed at it. My kids tell me I can do it, my mom tells me I can do it, Hell, my DH tells me I can do it. So why not? I'm just sick of people telling what I should and shouldn't do. I'm not 6 people.

That's my vent for what it's worth.


Thursday, May 20, 2010

I thnk I lost a friend today.

I'm not sure what went wrong or why it went wrong but it seems like it did.

This person lives close to me and we used to spend spring and summer afternoons and evenings talking about life, kids, money. You name it, we talked about it.

Ever since she found out that we took our son out of middle school and started to homeschool him, things haven't been the same. She's going back to school to possibly work in the medical field and her husband got a different job (same field, different employer). I understand that going back to school is stressful and then you are busier than all get out. But does that require this person to ignore me and not even say Hello?? I'm going back to school PLUS I'll be homeschooling my son next fall (can you say stressful??). Maybe I'm reading too much into this, but it just seems like ever since I told her that we would be homeschooling she's a totally different person. Her kids used to come and play with my boys and now it's few and far between. And please don't tell me it's because of the routine of school and nighttime rituals and stuff. We have that but I'm not anal about it. As long as my kids are in their rooms, in their beds by 9:30 p.m. I'm fine.

Do you think I'm reading too much into this?? Should I approach her?? (don't really want to). I don't know.


Monday, May 17, 2010

Life in General again....

Today is a cloudy, dreary, semi-warmish (insert snickering here) day here in Wisconsin.

This past weekend was fun. DD and I went to Illinois for the weekend. We stayed in a nice hotel, ate resturant food, slept in, shopped at the BIG mall and IKEA (where we found 2 different bookshelves that we desperately need) and found her bed set BUT had no means of getting all those boxes home. DARN!! She is SO picky it's not funny, so for her to like something is a major ordeal.

I left the boys in the capable hands of their father, which was fine. BUT when I got home, none of the stuff I had asked them to do was done, except the dishes. I should be grateful but really, how hard is it to transfer a load of towels into the dryer on Friday night and I discovered them smelly and disgusting on Sunday night???!?!?!? So here I am, waiting for the towels to be dry so we can have fresh, nice smelling towels again in the linen closet. Arugh.. the life of me, I tell ya. :)

DD took her Advance Placement World History exam last week and she thinks she did well, but we will find out sometime in July when the results come in the mail. I think she did fine but she is not as confident as I am about these things. I cannot believe that she will be a Junior next fall!!! She will also be turning 17!! Where did the time go???

When I was going through a box (yes after 7 years of being in this house, we are still not unpacked yet) of stash and I found a bunch of scissor fob patterns. I think I have an obession with them. Love them to pieces, that and scissors. I've got a few of them, would like more, but time will tell and money needs to be there for me to buy them. :) I still have a few more boxes, baskets, etc to go through before I make my stash for sale list, but I will let you all know when that happens.

I think that's it for me. I got a few threads so I can finish a scissor fob (see?? I told ya I have a problem with them!!!) and get that to my finisher friend. I should be able to pick up my framed piece soon.

Until then,

Sunday, May 2, 2010

Some images I wanted to share with you.

Look what my husband found outside his bathroom window this morning. There is a mama robin to go along with the 4 eggs inside the nest. She flew away before I took this picture. Neat huh?
This is Black Bird Design pattern. I forget which one but it's a recent one. I'll get this framed and hung in my bedroom. I think it's pretty.
My furry friends Leo (the darker, Siamese one) and Lisa (the grey and white Maine Coon). Up until this point, they never sat together so this is a first. They also keep me company when I'm not feeling well. Love them to pieces!! :)
This is a Shephard's Bush piece called My Pins. I didn't like the flower on the bottom OR the wording so I left them off. I will have this finished as a mini pin pillow just as soon as I save up the money to get it finished.

Hope you like the pictures. And see, I do stitch from time to time.
Have a great Sunday

Saturday, May 1, 2010

May 1st and a few thoughts...

Happy May Day Everyone!!

After I wrote the previous blog about my life, kids and husband, I realized that I need some time away from life in general. So with that being said, I am planning to take my daughter to someplace fun for a few days in the next couple of weeks. She will be studying hard for her Advance Placement World History College Exam so by the time I've planned this trip we will both be in dire need of it. I have a GPS so I won't get lost (but if you know me that is still possible) and hopefully we will both come back refreshed and ready to get on with life.

I thank each and every one of you who read and if you commented on my last post, words of encouragement and advice. It means the world to me to know that people care about my feelings and that I'm still valued as a person (even though it didn't feel like it at that moment, let me tell you). DH and my middle child were trying their best to put me in a better mood but all I really wanted was sleep. So I went to bed early and got a bunch of sleep and felt better in the morning. I'm still struggling with this headache I've had almost a week now and I hope it goes away real soon. I'm tired of living on Advil. I know what the doc is going to tell me "they are stress-related headaches, try to reduce your stress level." I'm trying, really I am!!

Today is beautiful out, windows are open, sun is shining and I've got freshly cut tulips (cut by my son yesterday because he said "You need them MOM") sitting right behind my computer so I can see them when I look up. And my buddy, Leo is at my side purring away so life is good.

Thanks again


Thursday, April 29, 2010

Feel like a failure

Well here it is, almost the last few days of April and I STIll have no stitching to show. I've been so distracted it's not funny. I've been dealing with my 10 year old son home sick from school since the 14th of April with the diagnosis of migraine headaches (and the stomach ache that goes with them). He's missing so much school and I don't know what to do. The kids pick on him when he does return to school (even for the 1/2 day yesterday the other kids asked him why he showed up). I'm getting his homework every couple of days and I make him do it so he's not so far behind. I called the principal to see if he had any advice for me and he told me to "make him come to school unless he's throwing up or has a fever". I suppose that's a good rule to go by BUT he's afraid of getting sick at school and being made fun of. His stomach aches get worse when he gets to school and they get better once he's 1/2 way home from school. His appetite is somewhat normal but he's not snacking in between meals like he usually does. The doctor just tells me to give him Advil and tums to help things along but how long can a 10 year old stay on this stuff??

I feel worn out, burned out, frustrated, no one understands, husband just had his wisdom teeth yanked out so he's not in the best of moods to talk to me. I have no friends around here to speak of. I'm so lost. My depression is getting the best of me and I REALLY don't want to try a different medication as I don't think it will help. I don't know if going to a therapist will help, maybe it would who knows. I just want Sam (the said 10 year old) to feel better, go back to school and like school again. He doesn't want to be sick anymore and I completely understand.

I wish I had some stitching to show, I ran out of floss for my current project (those all ready made up kits don't provide enough floss I swear) so a trip to the LNS is in order but don't know when I can go. Husband has so much work at work to do that he will have to work Saturday (unlike this time, last year when he was unemployed what a difference a year can make)and Sunday the LNS is closed PLUS we have to apply for passport cards for two of the kids so they can to with my SIL to Canada this summer (I think everyone involved will enjoy this mini-vacation from one another).

Please tell me things will get better. Please tell me that I will be able to talk to my husband again once he recovers from oral surgery, please tell me things will be alright. I don't want to sound desperate but I don't know what else to do. I'm so confused and frustrated.


Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Another miserable day...

Well, it's been a while since I've posted last and a few things have come up/happened in my life.

First was Nathan's 13th birthday. He got a bass guitar and a cake for his birthday plus money from various family members. He's enjoying his bass guitar to no end and I have the headache to prove it. LOL

Then it was what would have been my dad's 77th birthday. Unfortunately, due to rules at the cemetery, I couldn't put flowers at his grave. I'll have to combine his birthday and Father's Day in one come June when I can put flowers there. I miss his smile and his laugh terribly. He would have gotten a kick out of Sam and all his funny things he does.

Then Nathan brought to my attention, that he's still being bullied. This time with threats. So tomorrow I will call the principal and talk to her and see what can be done. Nathan isn't doing his work because he's so distracted with all the bullying that's going on. I'm not sure if he's going to pass into the 8th grade, what next school year brings, or anything at this point. I'm just TRYING to get him through the next 11 weeks of school and hopefully he'll bring his grades up so that he will not have to repeat the 7th grade.

Daughter is still learning to drive, and she thinks she has a part-time job babysitting. She needs to do something with her time other than play video games and computer time. So I'm hoping that this will work out. Husband is still working his tail off as usual. He's got a bunch of work to do that will take him well into May. I'm hoping there is more work after that and I'm sure there will be. It just takes time.

That's it from mu household. I hope your life is calm and I hope things around here settle down soon.

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Some ramblings and venting AGAIN!

It's the day after President's Day and my middle child, Nathan, has been home sick for almost a week now. I finally took him to the doctor's and he couldn't come up with a diagnosis, so he is running some blood tests. Some of the results came back normal, a couple of results are a bit high and the rest haven't come in yet. So, the doctor prescribed an antibiotic for him to take and this morning he seems to feel a bit better than yesterday but not quite ready to go back to school yet. He is missing SO much school, assignments, instruction I'm not sure what to do. So we are laying low and trying to get Nathan better.

Haven't had the patience to stitch lately. Too stressed out about Nathan. If I keep stressing out, I'll make myself sick and that isn't a good thing. I have been reading off and on, so that gets my mind off the immediate problems.

DH has been working consistantly with more work for him to do, so that will keep up for a while. Nichole and Sam are doing well. They wish for no more snow and warmer days. Sam really wants to ride his bike to school so he doesn't have to leave so early. I don't blame him either. I want warmer temps and no more snow!! I'm snowed out!!

Also trying to figure out where money is going to come from to fix a leaky window in one of our bathrooms. Happens every late winter/early spring. The snow melts, icicles melt and then the water leaks into the frame of the window. We also need to fix our back fence. Looks like a tornado went through, it's just falling apart and whomever fixed it - did it WRONG!! So DH will have to put in new posts and hopefully we can use some of the panels yet, if not, then we need to obviously replace them. Sigh..... sometimes being a homeowner isn't fun.

I guess I've rambled on long enough. I'll update the blog when I know more about Nathan.


Friday, January 29, 2010

Miscellaneous Stuff

Well, here it is the end of January and it's cold in Wisconsin. (Like it's supposed to be). I thought I would update those who read about my household and stuff in general.

Let's see:

DH is still working, has a bunch of projects to keep him going. Happy that he's employed as SO many people are not.

DD's grades came in today and there is room for improvement. If she wants to get into a good college, she better get her grade point average up some, otherwise her options are limited. Otherwise she is doing great.

Middle Child's grades came in yesterday and he REALLY needs to improve his math grade. He keeps getting incompletes and does nothing to fix it. The 7th grade teachers are getting these kids ready for 8th grade by toughening their policies about homework, late work, etc. Good thing, I'm ready to pounce on him like you would not believe. Overall his grades are good but this math thing has got to get better. He's feeling better about himself again. Another plus.

Youngest kid is FINALLY better. No more antibiotics. He was sick off and on (mostly on) since the Tuesday after Christmas and 4 antibiotics later, he's better. Haven't gotten his grades yet (suspect they will be in today's folder from school) but it seems he's doing well. No bad emails or letters home from the teacher.

As for me, I'm on a new eating and exercising thing. I'm watching what I eat and logging every bite into a app on my Itouch, drinking more water and tea. I'm also working out with the Wii Fit Plus program that I bought myself last fall in hopes of losing these 10-15 pounds that I gained last summer. So far, I'm enjoying the different games and routines. In the 9 or so days I've been on this new program that I put myself on, I've lost 2 pounds. My middle child is my cheerleader. He keeps me going. Everyone else is either making fun of me or telling me that it's a fleeting thing that I will do. I REALLY need to loose the stupid weight. I need a cheering section.

No stitching news, I've acquired new stash, but no new stitches put in. I've been reading a bunch so that has been taking up some of my time. Along with a cat with weight and litter box issues, I've been cleaning more than I care to.

Until next time

Monday, January 11, 2010

Update on my life

Well here it is, the second week in January and I managed to get all 3 kids to school today. After much complaining by Nathan I may add. He's just not a morning person and he's been home sick last week Thursday and Friday. He just complains that he's tired and HELL so am I but I'm up and doing stuff around the house that needs to be done at that ungodly hour. Hopefully he will be in a better mood once school lets out for the day. We shall see.

Sam is STILL battling his ear and throat infections. Took him to the doctor last week Friday and got a prescription for an antibiotic and wouldn't you know it, the kid will NOT take it. We tried mixing it with milk and juice, dilute it with water, gave him a huge glass of water on the side to take after he took the medicine. NOPE he will not take it. So, this morning I called the doctor and explained what is going on and he prescribed a different antibiotic and HOPEFULLY he will take it. Otherwise, I'm forced to use the "if you don't take it and get better you'll end up in the hospital" routine. I hate doing that but if it gets him to take his medicine then all the better.

Nichole is doing well, she is gearing up for a major studying/cram sessions for exams starting (I think) next week or the week after. She finally told people about the entry into the Art Competition over the Christmas holiday. Boy were my sister-in-law and my niece (who is an art major) were proud. So was Grandma!!

Chris is feeling much better these days, the cold he had really took him for a loop. He didn't miss work or anything. Just went to bed early and stopped going to the YMCA for a few days. Now I just want him to be more energetic like he was, I guess he still needs to recover from the cold. I'm doing alright. Feeling a bit more depressed lately. I think it's because there hasn't been any sunshine lately and hopefully the weather will continue to improve and get warmer and sunnier. We desperately need a January thaw.

That's it for now. I'll take a picture of the latest completed project I have and post it in a few days. Hope all is well with you and yours.


Saturday, January 2, 2010


Well, here it is 2010 and I've got nothing to show for it. Just kidding. I'm glad to see 2009 leave us as it was a difficult year for us. DH was unemployed from June until the end of August, making it a financial nightmare that we are still recovering from. I assume this will get better as the new year goes on. We had the typical illnesses in the house and the kids were generally happy.

Christmas was an uneventful one. Kids got what they wanted, DH and I got an unexpected gift from his mother and we are grateful to her for it. Had a nice Christmas Day dinner with my mom and spent sometime with her. New Year's Eve came and went without fanfare. I just cannot stay up that late anymore and haven't been able to since I had kids. My daughter spent the night at a friends house and stayed up until 5 am and was up until her normal bedtime, but she also slept in until 10:45 this morning to make up for it. LOL

DH and Sam have been sick for the last few days. Had to take Sam to Urgent Care, as his doctor was unavailable, they diagnosed him with ear infections in both ears and possible strep. So on antibiotics he goes and hopefully he will be fully recovered by the 4th (when they go back to school) I feel bad that most of his vacation he was sick for but I guess it's better than missing school during the regular hours. Hopefully, no one else will get sick and we make it through the next couple of weeks illness-free. Fingers Crossed!

I stitched most of the afternoon on the 2nd and got a lot done. I will post a picture in the next couple of days. It's going much faster now that the ugly green color is done with for the time being. Other than that, everyone goes back to school and work on Monday. YIPEE! I think I need a vacation.

I'll post again soon.
Happy New Year!