Saturday, September 1, 2012

Miscellaneous Stuff

Here it is September 1 and I'm REALLY behind on my blog once again. I'm sorry.  Too many things are happening again.

1. I turned 41 at the end of August.
2. Sam is getting ready to go back to school but in a completely different district.
3. Went on vacation and had a fabulous time.

Then my life got turned upside down.

My mom had a moderate stroke on August 27th.  She was in this coma-like state for about 2 days. I'm still not sure she completely knows who I am but she smiles when I walk in the room and I'll take it.  I'll take anything at this point.

It's very scary to say the least. Decisions have to be made and I'm the one to make them for her. She cannot speak and most of the time she will answer "yes" to anything.  She also has to relearn how to swallow again. Found out yesterday that she still loves her sugar cookies. 

I do have a support system for myself and mom but right now I'm exhausted to no end.  Simple things around the house take forever and a day to complete.  But I have to be strong for mom and my kids.  

It's been a LONG week and it's going to be a long road ahead of us for quite sometime. Prognosis? Still too early to tell. Will she ever be able to go back to her own house again? Not sure. I hate the unknown it bothers me.

Wednesday, June 27, 2012

Hi guys,

Well it's almost the end of June and a bunch of things have happened lately. 

First, Nichole graduated High School a few weeks ago.  She's beyond happy to be done with High School and frankly, I am too.  It still amazes me that I have gotten my first child through all 12 years of school plus the fact she's an adult (in age alone mind you. LOL).  Right now she is enjoying babysitting the neighbor kids while she is looking for a job.

There she is, all grown up (sort of speak). She cannot wait to get on with her life (as she says, not me by any means).

While the above was happening, I was also trying to take care of my mom who has been in and out of the hospital about 6 times since January.  She had some heart issues that have been taken care of (hopefully for good) and she is also an insulin-dependent diabetic.  My dad was as well so I know what is in store for her. 

Other than that, not much has been going on. I've driving a ton lately just going back and forth to my mom's and I'm really thinking hard about moving closer to her. Homeschooling the boys has ended for the most part for the summer. Sam is partially enrolled in a normal school for the fall and he's excited about it. He will try once again to see if he can tolerate the regular school setting, if not, it's back to homeschooling him once again.

Gotta run..

Tuesday, May 22, 2012


Hi guys!

Now if you know me, either in real life or via this blog, you will know that I LOVE LOVE The Bee Gees.  I was incredibly sad when Andy passed away back in the late 80's, almost devastated when Maurice passed away (I was just coming off a couple of personal losses at the time and little did I know what was in store for me in the coming months of 2003) and now Robin has passed away.  

I get that these music icons do pass away but seriously at 62?? Cancer is rude and cruel. So in my usual way, I'm going to stick a YouTube video of MY favorite Bee Gee song.  Enjoy!

Hopefully I will begin to blog more again. Tons of stuff happening lately. 


Monday, April 16, 2012

I'm Back....

So it's the middle of April and Easter has come and gone. Not that I celebrate Easter or anything but it is what it is.

Where have I been?

I've been here, busy, but here.  Let's see - the anniversary of my father's passing has come and gone and I got through it for the first time without tears. Yeah me!  And now that Spring Break is officially over for my kids, it's back to Nichole trying to get through the last 6-8 week of school. Then it's her graduation from High School.  Back to me homeschooling the boys. Keeping an eye on my mom.  Getting the last little details in place so my divorce can be final soon. Saving money left and right so I can move when I'm told to by the court. Lots and lots of other little things that seem to take up a huge amount of my time lately.

In the middle of this, I found (well, Nathan did..ahem..) a cute YouTube video. It's called Simon's Cat. Wanna see? I know you do....

Now, anyone with more than one cat can relate.  It describes my house perfectly when we brought Sheba home almost 2 years ago.  I love this!!!

Can we also mourn the loss of Davy Jones?  (insert moment of silence)

Ok, now The Monkees were HUGE in the 60's (I wasn't even a thought. hmm..) and then they came back in the 80's (high school time for me). I even went to a concert at the Marcus Amplitheater way back when.  I don't have pictures of it available. But I can stick a YouTube video in for fun.  

The ending stuff back then.....

I hope to be back to posting soon.  I also hope my life settles down a little bit more so I can blog.
Talk to you soon

Sunday, February 19, 2012

General stuff...

So February is almost over.  Valentines Day has come and gone (not that I'm a huge believer in this holiday but still).  Kids for the most part are healthy.  Nichole is wishing that graduation would get here already. Me? Not so much, that just means she's going to leave the nest and I'm not so sure I'm ready for that one.  Mixed emotions to say the least.

We all know that Whitney Houston passed away.  I'm sad about that for the sole reason that she had a beautiful voice.  I could care LESS about her addictions, problems with her ex, etc. It's her voice that I will miss.  My whole high school years were basically based on her voice and songs.  Not that I want to go back to high school (nope - never again) but those songs were the soundtrack of those years.  

While I was digging around on YouTube - I came across this song:

 So as I go through this crappy divorce and get my life back in order - this song has been a great help.  Am I getting sappy for these kinds of songs? Maybe. But they help me. And right now I'll take any and all help I can get.

I hope to get back to blogging on a regular basis soon.  It helps me sort out emotions and junk like that.  

Enjoy the video.

Thursday, January 12, 2012

New outlook on things...

Hey there,

While last year was crappy on so many levels, I have decided that this year will be much better.  I know darn well that it will take time but if I focus enough on the things that matter to me, it will make me a better person overall.

So with that being said. I have picked a few words to, hopefully, make me realize that there is a light at the end of this tunnel. Here are the words that I want to focus on for the next, oh I dunno, 6 months or so:

and last but not least

My goal is to post at least one thing about one of these words each week.  Am I a tad to hopeful? maybe. But if I don't focus on these things I'll end up right where I was this time last year - miserable. I don't want that for me or my kids.  We have had enough of that crap to last us a lifetime.

Will there be downer posts? most likely.  But if you read blogs on a regular basis - everyone has downer posts, it's life.  So, please be patient with me and I will be (working on it...) happy again..

In the meantime, enjoy this:

It's a pretty song and it's been helping me. 


Friday, January 6, 2012

First post for me in 2012


I know I'm a tad late with this but who really cares.

So Christmas is over, STBX is back at work (thank god!) and the kids are back at school/homeschool routines.  I'm going into this year with an open mind and hoping that 2012 is kinder to me than 2011 was.  My kids and I REALLY need things to calm down and return to some kind of normalcy (what ever the heck that is these days)

We are enjoying the lack of snow and cold here in Wisconsin. Which is VERY unusual for us.  By now, typically, we have tons of snow and it's really cold. But today, it's supposed to be in the upper 40's and close to 50 in some places around here today.  I swear, we are going to get hit and hit hard with snow and cold one of these days. But for now, I'll take what we are given. 

But part of me is still longing to be here:

This looks SO appealing to me. Sigh

Can you tell I'm wanting to go on a vacation??