Thursday, April 29, 2010

Feel like a failure

Well here it is, almost the last few days of April and I STIll have no stitching to show. I've been so distracted it's not funny. I've been dealing with my 10 year old son home sick from school since the 14th of April with the diagnosis of migraine headaches (and the stomach ache that goes with them). He's missing so much school and I don't know what to do. The kids pick on him when he does return to school (even for the 1/2 day yesterday the other kids asked him why he showed up). I'm getting his homework every couple of days and I make him do it so he's not so far behind. I called the principal to see if he had any advice for me and he told me to "make him come to school unless he's throwing up or has a fever". I suppose that's a good rule to go by BUT he's afraid of getting sick at school and being made fun of. His stomach aches get worse when he gets to school and they get better once he's 1/2 way home from school. His appetite is somewhat normal but he's not snacking in between meals like he usually does. The doctor just tells me to give him Advil and tums to help things along but how long can a 10 year old stay on this stuff??

I feel worn out, burned out, frustrated, no one understands, husband just had his wisdom teeth yanked out so he's not in the best of moods to talk to me. I have no friends around here to speak of. I'm so lost. My depression is getting the best of me and I REALLY don't want to try a different medication as I don't think it will help. I don't know if going to a therapist will help, maybe it would who knows. I just want Sam (the said 10 year old) to feel better, go back to school and like school again. He doesn't want to be sick anymore and I completely understand.

I wish I had some stitching to show, I ran out of floss for my current project (those all ready made up kits don't provide enough floss I swear) so a trip to the LNS is in order but don't know when I can go. Husband has so much work at work to do that he will have to work Saturday (unlike this time, last year when he was unemployed what a difference a year can make)and Sunday the LNS is closed PLUS we have to apply for passport cards for two of the kids so they can to with my SIL to Canada this summer (I think everyone involved will enjoy this mini-vacation from one another).

Please tell me things will get better. Please tell me that I will be able to talk to my husband again once he recovers from oral surgery, please tell me things will be alright. I don't want to sound desperate but I don't know what else to do. I'm so confused and frustrated.



Dottie Paullin Kornafel said...

Kelly, things always look darkest before the dawn - or so they say. I wish I had some fantastic words of wisdom for you but unfortunately I don't. I only know this, once when I was married to an abusive alcoholic I always tried to "fix" things on my own, it never really worked. Then one day I just couldn't take it any more and said "God, its in your hands, guide me & lead me." And, I left it with there and proceeded in the belief that God was helping me. I did leave my husband but we remaineds friends until the day he died - the police notified me as he had no one else and I saw to his final arrangements (like finding his children, etc). Do you need help, probably but not drastically. Do I think you need to home school both boys, yes. But I really don't know much about it. My prayers are with all of you. And please realize you need to find respite somewhere along the line. Husband needs to step up to the plate (sorry if that sounds harsh). The world did not end because he had oral surgery. Actually, you 2 need some very private time and need to have a real conversation. Sorry if any of this doesn't sound good but it is heartfelt. I've been in many a tough situation in my 65 years and know only that faith kept me going. Once again, my prayers are with all of you. God Bless.
P.S. e-mail me privately if you want to talk further.
Dottie K

blueladie said...

NOTHING lasts forever! Not the good, not the bad! You are doing such a wonderful, caring, loving job as a mom. I wonder if you could afford to put him in a private school. I sent my daughter to a Catholic school and it solved a LOT of problems because they don't put up with any "c**p"!!!

I am so sorry I haven't been able to call you and miss you when I do.
Hang in there.

GoldenAngelsWorks said...

So sorry you are going through all this hun. I so wish I was closer in location.

Carolyn NC said...

I'm so sorry, Kelly. When one of my children was in school, we dealt with the continual stomachaches. Dr. said it was so unbelievably common and they saw it all the time. Was directly related to stress at school for my child, even though they weren't aware of it. Sounds like yours is dealing with peers at school like so many other kids. I wish I had the right words to say to make it better. God did see us through and I'll be praying for you all to get through this time, too. Keep us posted, please.