Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Do you ever.........

wonder if God is giving you more than you can handle at any given time?

This has been a very frustrating, tiring, and exhausting year for us.

First it was the whole bullying and depression issues that my middle child was experiencing resulting in counseling and removing him from school to homeschool him. It was a hard decision to homeschool him but in the long run it turned out for the best. He's learning better and faster than if he was in school. He's talking about returning to the school system next fall for high school. I hope he goes. I think it would be a good thing.

Then it was Sam and him being sick. This fall we finally got a diagnosis of Daily Chronic Headaches. Good thing right? You would think so. But Sam isn't responding to treatment so with that being said, we are going to have additional tests and possibly new medication to try.

The school is being stupid about Sam and his health situation. Now, since the school nurse and psychologist looked at his medical records, seem to think that Sam is depressed. I don't know what to think about this. His doctor has told me time and time again that Sam isn't depressed and now the school personnel think he is?? My children know about my depression as I'm very open about it and don't want them to think anything bad of me. But really, NOW they are FIRST mentioning that MAYBE Sam is depressed???

I had to temporarily drop out of school. It was a hard decision to make but a necessary one. I'm also rethinking about my major. I'm not real confident in the web design industry and don't know what the job prospects would be when I finish the school work. I don't know what I want to study now. And for now, I'm letting it go.

Then I was incredibly sick for almost 7 weeks. I had 3 rounds of antibiotics, 2 full courses of steroids, pain killers and anti-nausea medication. Also, throw in a trip to the Emergency Room for good measure and you got my life. Exciting isn't it??

There also seems to be the lack of money lately. I don't know where we went wrong or if we did, but there isn't enough money lately to make all the bills. That sucks big time. With that being said, Christmas is going to be just a regular day for us. Yes there will be something for the kids to open on the morning of and yes there will be a dinner in which my mom will come over for, but other than that, nothing is going to be different. Just not in the Christmas mood. Oh how I wish for my dad to be here to give me some words of wisdom.

With all that has/is happening in the family, do you understand the first line of this blog-post??



GoldenAngelsWorks said...

I understand.

I hope things get better for your family soon!!!

blueladie said...

Kelly, I have no words of wisdom for you only prayers and love and caring for what you are going through. 1. nothing lasts forever and 2 a cross stitch piece I saw once. "God never gives us more than we can handle, I just wish He didn't trust me so much." :( Sounds like God trusts you a lot!!! love, hugs & prayers, Cathryn

Suzann said...

sometimes when things are like that and we feel overwhelmed by all the goings on we have to step back and just pray for understanding.

As I read your words, I honestly had only one thought.

You are supposed to stop going to school, keep your children home, and homeschool them.

I don't know why this became so clear in my mind, but I felt compelled to share.

Christmas isn't about the "stuff" it's about being thankful for our Savior.

Wishing you blessings and offering prayers during this time.