I thnk I lost a friend today.

I'm not sure what went wrong or why it went wrong but it seems like it did.

This person lives close to me and we used to spend spring and summer afternoons and evenings talking about life, kids, money. You name it, we talked about it.

Ever since she found out that we took our son out of middle school and started to homeschool him, things haven't been the same. She's going back to school to possibly work in the medical field and her husband got a different job (same field, different employer). I understand that going back to school is stressful and then you are busier than all get out. But does that require this person to ignore me and not even say Hello?? I'm going back to school PLUS I'll be homeschooling my son next fall (can you say stressful??). Maybe I'm reading too much into this, but it just seems like ever since I told her that we would be homeschooling she's a totally different person. Her kids used to come and play with my boys and now it's few and far between. And please don't tell me it's because of the routine of school and nighttime rituals and stuff. We have that but I'm not anal about it. As long as my kids are in their rooms, in their beds by 9:30 p.m. I'm fine.

Do you think I'm reading too much into this?? Should I approach her?? (don't really want to). I don't know.

Kelly

Life in General again....

Today is a cloudy, dreary, semi-warmish (insert snickering here) day here in Wisconsin.

This past weekend was fun. DD and I went to Illinois for the weekend. We stayed in a nice hotel, ate resturant food, slept in, shopped at the BIG mall and IKEA (where we found 2 different bookshelves that we desperately need) and found her bed set BUT had no means of getting all those boxes home. DARN!! She is SO picky it's not funny, so for her to like something is a major ordeal.

I left the boys in the capable hands of their father, which was fine. BUT when I got home, none of the stuff I had asked them to do was done, except the dishes. I should be grateful but really, how hard is it to transfer a load of towels into the dryer on Friday night and I discovered them smelly and disgusting on Sunday night???!?!?!? So here I am, waiting for the towels to be dry so we can have fresh, nice smelling towels again in the linen closet. Arugh.. the life of me, I tell ya. :)

DD took her Advance Placement World History exam last week and she thinks she did well, but we will find out sometime in July when the results come in the mail. I think she did fine but she is not as confident as I am about these things. I cannot believe that she will be a Junior next fall!!! She will also be turning 17!! Where did the time go???

When I was going through a box (yes after 7 years of being in this house, we are still not unpacked yet) of stash and I found a bunch of scissor fob patterns. I think I have an obession with them. Love them to pieces, that and scissors. I've got a few of them, would like more, but time will tell and money needs to be there for me to buy them. :) I still have a few more boxes, baskets, etc to go through before I make my stash for sale list, but I will let you all know when that happens.

I think that's it for me. I got a few threads so I can finish a scissor fob (see?? I told ya I have a problem with them!!!) and get that to my finisher friend. I should be able to pick up my framed piece soon.

Until then,
Hugs
Kelly

Some images I wanted to share with you.

Look what my husband found outside his bathroom window this morning. There is a mama robin to go along with the 4 eggs inside the nest. She flew away before I took this picture. Neat huh?
This is Black Bird Design pattern. I forget which one but it's a recent one. I'll get this framed and hung in my bedroom. I think it's pretty.
My furry friends Leo (the darker, Siamese one) and Lisa (the grey and white Maine Coon). Up until this point, they never sat together so this is a first. They also keep me company when I'm not feeling well. Love them to pieces!! :)
This is a Shephard's Bush piece called My Pins. I didn't like the flower on the bottom OR the wording so I left them off. I will have this finished as a mini pin pillow just as soon as I save up the money to get it finished.

Hope you like the pictures. And see, I do stitch from time to time.
Have a great Sunday
Kelly

May 1st and a few thoughts...

Happy May Day Everyone!!

After I wrote the previous blog about my life, kids and husband, I realized that I need some time away from life in general. So with that being said, I am planning to take my daughter to someplace fun for a few days in the next couple of weeks. She will be studying hard for her Advance Placement World History College Exam so by the time I've planned this trip we will both be in dire need of it. I have a GPS so I won't get lost (but if you know me that is still possible) and hopefully we will both come back refreshed and ready to get on with life.

I thank each and every one of you who read and if you commented on my last post, words of encouragement and advice. It means the world to me to know that people care about my feelings and that I'm still valued as a person (even though it didn't feel like it at that moment, let me tell you). DH and my middle child were trying their best to put me in a better mood but all I really wanted was sleep. So I went to bed early and got a bunch of sleep and felt better in the morning. I'm still struggling with this headache I've had almost a week now and I hope it goes away real soon. I'm tired of living on Advil. I know what the doc is going to tell me "they are stress-related headaches, try to reduce your stress level." I'm trying, really I am!!

Today is beautiful out, windows are open, sun is shining and I've got freshly cut tulips (cut by my son yesterday because he said "You need them MOM") sitting right behind my computer so I can see them when I look up. And my buddy, Leo is at my side purring away so life is good.

Thanks again

Kelly

Feel like a failure

Well here it is, almost the last few days of April and I STIll have no stitching to show. I've been so distracted it's not funny. I've been dealing with my 10 year old son home sick from school since the 14th of April with the diagnosis of migraine headaches (and the stomach ache that goes with them). He's missing so much school and I don't know what to do. The kids pick on him when he does return to school (even for the 1/2 day yesterday the other kids asked him why he showed up). I'm getting his homework every couple of days and I make him do it so he's not so far behind. I called the principal to see if he had any advice for me and he told me to "make him come to school unless he's throwing up or has a fever". I suppose that's a good rule to go by BUT he's afraid of getting sick at school and being made fun of. His stomach aches get worse when he gets to school and they get better once he's 1/2 way home from school. His appetite is somewhat normal but he's not snacking in between meals like he usually does. The doctor just tells me to give him Advil and tums to help things along but how long can a 10 year old stay on this stuff??

I feel worn out, burned out, frustrated, no one understands, husband just had his wisdom teeth yanked out so he's not in the best of moods to talk to me. I have no friends around here to speak of. I'm so lost. My depression is getting the best of me and I REALLY don't want to try a different medication as I don't think it will help. I don't know if going to a therapist will help, maybe it would who knows. I just want Sam (the said 10 year old) to feel better, go back to school and like school again. He doesn't want to be sick anymore and I completely understand.

I wish I had some stitching to show, I ran out of floss for my current project (those all ready made up kits don't provide enough floss I swear) so a trip to the LNS is in order but don't know when I can go. Husband has so much work at work to do that he will have to work Saturday (unlike this time, last year when he was unemployed what a difference a year can make)and Sunday the LNS is closed PLUS we have to apply for passport cards for two of the kids so they can to with my SIL to Canada this summer (I think everyone involved will enjoy this mini-vacation from one another).

Please tell me things will get better. Please tell me that I will be able to talk to my husband again once he recovers from oral surgery, please tell me things will be alright. I don't want to sound desperate but I don't know what else to do. I'm so confused and frustrated.

Kelly

Another miserable day...

Well, it's been a while since I've posted last and a few things have come up/happened in my life.

First was Nathan's 13th birthday. He got a bass guitar and a cake for his birthday plus money from various family members. He's enjoying his bass guitar to no end and I have the headache to prove it. LOL

Then it was what would have been my dad's 77th birthday. Unfortunately, due to rules at the cemetery, I couldn't put flowers at his grave. I'll have to combine his birthday and Father's Day in one come June when I can put flowers there. I miss his smile and his laugh terribly. He would have gotten a kick out of Sam and all his funny things he does.

Then Nathan brought to my attention, that he's still being bullied. This time with threats. So tomorrow I will call the principal and talk to her and see what can be done. Nathan isn't doing his work because he's so distracted with all the bullying that's going on. I'm not sure if he's going to pass into the 8th grade, what next school year brings, or anything at this point. I'm just TRYING to get him through the next 11 weeks of school and hopefully he'll bring his grades up so that he will not have to repeat the 7th grade.

Daughter is still learning to drive, and she thinks she has a part-time job babysitting. She needs to do something with her time other than play video games and computer time. So I'm hoping that this will work out. Husband is still working his tail off as usual. He's got a bunch of work to do that will take him well into May. I'm hoping there is more work after that and I'm sure there will be. It just takes time.

That's it from mu household. I hope your life is calm and I hope things around here settle down soon.
Hugs
Kelly

Some ramblings and venting AGAIN!

It's the day after President's Day and my middle child, Nathan, has been home sick for almost a week now. I finally took him to the doctor's and he couldn't come up with a diagnosis, so he is running some blood tests. Some of the results came back normal, a couple of results are a bit high and the rest haven't come in yet. So, the doctor prescribed an antibiotic for him to take and this morning he seems to feel a bit better than yesterday but not quite ready to go back to school yet. He is missing SO much school, assignments, instruction I'm not sure what to do. So we are laying low and trying to get Nathan better.

Haven't had the patience to stitch lately. Too stressed out about Nathan. If I keep stressing out, I'll make myself sick and that isn't a good thing. I have been reading off and on, so that gets my mind off the immediate problems.

DH has been working consistantly with more work for him to do, so that will keep up for a while. Nichole and Sam are doing well. They wish for no more snow and warmer days. Sam really wants to ride his bike to school so he doesn't have to leave so early. I don't blame him either. I want warmer temps and no more snow!! I'm snowed out!!

Also trying to figure out where money is going to come from to fix a leaky window in one of our bathrooms. Happens every late winter/early spring. The snow melts, icicles melt and then the water leaks into the frame of the window. We also need to fix our back fence. Looks like a tornado went through, it's just falling apart and whomever fixed it - did it WRONG!! So DH will have to put in new posts and hopefully we can use some of the panels yet, if not, then we need to obviously replace them. Sigh..... sometimes being a homeowner isn't fun.

I guess I've rambled on long enough. I'll update the blog when I know more about Nathan.

Hugs
Kelly