Where have I been you asked?

I've been here, just not blogging. There has been a lot going on since the beginning of September that I'm not sure I can remember it all.

Sam (my youngest kid who's 10) has been telling me off and on since April of this year, that he has a headache. Okay, I give him Tylenol/Advil/Motrin and it doesn't seem to help. Go to family doctor and he tells me that these headaches are migraine headaches and that they should go away on their own with rest. Nope, they don't. Register Sam for school and all is fine ( or so I think it is, but Sam isn't telling me that he's not feeling well) and goes to school the first couple of days. Then complains that his head hurts and his stomach is upset, so I keep him home for a few days or so. Take him back to the doctor and he prescribes a medication for Sam to take. Sam is still missing school at this point and the school is threatening legal action if I don't get a medical excuse for him.

Called his doctor, explain what is happening and then the doctor referred us to a pediatric neurologist. Make the appointment, no biggie. We go and the doctor (who is really nice and patient)and gives Sam the once over, talks to Sam about his headaches, leaves the room and comes back and tells us that Sam has Daily Chronic Persistent Headaches to which there is no medication to kick the headache out of the system. Boo :( Get the medical excuse and arrange for Sam to have some necessary testing to make sure nothing else is going on with him (all tests came back fine YIPPEE)

The school set up a educational 504 plan for Sam for school which includes online schooling for those days he cannot make it to class, a modified schedule for him on the days he makes it to class but cannot stay the entire day and if Sam makes school (the full day 8-3) for 3 weeks in a row, the modifications go away. Which is fine, we all agreed with it and Sam understand that. But he hasn't made it to class since that meeting as his headaches are pretty bad and with him being nauseous, I don't know if he could make it to school, let alone stay there when he feels so badly.

I had to drop out of online school for the time being. It was just too much to deal with at the time. I'll think about going back again at a later time. When you ask? Who knows. All I know is just not now. I need to get Sam doing school work and homeschooling Nathan has become a full-time job in itself.

If you read my previous post, you will notice that we got a Lynxpoint Siamese kitten named Sheba. She's such a sweet cat, loves to play (with our toes in the middle of the night of all times. ) She's 5 months old and likes to play with Leo (the other Siamese cat in the house). Yes there is some hissing and growling, but that is to be expected and I'm not concerned about it at this point. She loves to snuggle and I'm glad she does as our other Siamese cat Maddy used to do that with me.

Husband is still working up a storm but the overtime has stopped for the time being Boo:( I know I shouldn't get used to that extra money but it was nice while it lasted. Today hubby is canvasing the neighborhoods to "Get Out The Vote" for the elections on Tuesday and I have a funny feeling that the person I want to win, won't. That sucks. But it's life and I'll get over it. Hubby seems to enjoy doing this so why not.

Nichole is doing well in her classes. She still wishes that the person who did scheduling of classes over the summer didn't put her in Woman's Lit. She hates it with a passion. She was SO stressed about the debate in the class that she was making herself sick. She's fine now, but still, she's only 17 and she doesn't need to put this kind of stress on herself. She's enjoying her Junior year and her friends and that's important.

Other than that, nothing is going on. You think I've been a tad stressed lately?? LOL Hopefully things will calm down soon and I can get back to either reading or stitching OR both!!!

Gotta run, laundry is calling me............
Hugs
Kelly

Think she's cute???

So did we, she's hiding under our master bed now and will only come out when it's quiet and hubby and I are in bed. She's my birthday present from my kids and hubby.

Kelly

Guess Who's Birthday It Is???

Happy Birthday Nichole!!!!!!!!!!!! I cannot believe that you are 17 now. I can remember the day you were born like it was yesterday. I'm so proud of you and love you very much!!!

Love
Mom

Me? Perfect??

I was reading on a couple of other blogs tonight about being perfect. I so can relate to those people who have written about it. This thing we call parenthood is difficult and I so wish someone had a manual to give out when you have children, it would make it so much easier.

I have my doubts about a lot of things. Like am I a good wife?? Am I doing the right thing by my children?? Is Sam going to get better? Why doesn't that damn pile of laundry go away EVER?? I could go on and on and on.............you get the picture.

I really don't have any friends that I can confide in. I have a hard time making friends, I don't know why but I do. And the friends I do have seem to think that I'm all put together and have the best of things. I DON'T!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I just know how to hide things and I hide them well.

We all have problems with this and that and I get that. I just want someone to listen to me and not judge me or make the problems I have seem less than what they really are. It's hard to talk about these things with my husband because he has his own stressors and I don't want to make him miserable. Plus the things that are bothering me, they are bothering him too and neither one of us know how to fix it at the moment.

I wish someone could come to my house and clean it, do the laundry (and I mean ALL of it) and make dinner. But the reality of it is, it's up to me. I know I'm not perfect and sometimes I feel like I have to keep up with the Jones' but again reality sets in and I know I fail miserably.

There are things that I can do or in control of and those are the 3 kids I brought into this world and to me, they are perfect. I can love my husband to no end and to me that's perfect and I know (even though he doesn't say it much) that he loves me and that's perfect.

Everything else will just have to be the way it is until I can get around to it.

Kelly

Random Thoughts

Here it is, almost 4 pm in Wisconsin and my mind is wandering. So the following are things that are floating in my head and stressing me out (what else is new right??)

-waiting for primary doctor to call back and advise me what to do about Sam and school
-not knowing why Sam is getting migraines
-how far behind is he really?
-hoping the online mortgage payment goes through tonight
-wondering why DH doesn't want to go to the pediatric neurologist appointment with me
-wondering if I'm homeschooling Nathan properly, I feel that I am, but again it's early in the year
-when is bedtime for me?
-why is the Advil I took for the stress headache not working?
-is Sam ever going to get better?
-is the dishwasher ever going to get emptied?
-am I ever going to catch up on laundry?
-why am I not more organized?
-where is "me" time or is that an impossible dream?
- crap, I forgot about dinner. Take out pizza it is
-Nichole is mad at me because Sam took sick days this week.
-does DH even care about my concerns anymore?

I need a vacation or some answers pretty damn quick. I cannot take this much longer, I'm going to burst.

Kelly

It's my birthday today!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!

I'm not sure if I should be happy or not. It's not like I turned 40 this year (that's next year), I'm 39 today. I should be happy that I have a wonderful husband, kids, mom and bunch of extended family. Don't get me wrong, I am happy for that. It's such a weird feeling. I got this way before my 30th birthday too. Maybe it's the fact that I'm getting older and hopefully wiser. Maybe it's because I miss my dad and he's not here to celebrate with me. I dunno. All I know is that I'm grateful that God let me wake up today to celebrate another birthday (or the anniversary of my birth as my dad would say).

Whatever the day brings, I'm happy.
So...........
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hugs,
Kelly

A new school year about to begin!!

Well here it is, August 25th and some one rude reminded me that Christmas is 4 months away. Yuck!! I don't even want to hear about Christmas until AFTER my husband's birthday in early November. Pet peeve of mine

Anyways, school is about to start. It starts Sept 1 for Sam and Nichole and the 17th for Nathan. Why the delay with Nathan you ask? I'm homeschooling him and I haven't gotten all his supplies ordered and the ones I do have ordered are on backorder until about that time. But I've got him writing a report on a subject for one of his chapters in Social Studies, so I am doing something.

Sam is excited to go back to school. This year he gets to wear an I.D. and play the cello. Nichole just wants something to do. She will be a junior this year and she can't wait. I'm glad to see some of my kids excited about school, I just wish Nathan was more into it. Maybe he will as we start this new adventure in our lives. And I hope it works out for the better. I don't want Nathan going through what he went through last year ever again and if this is the way we teach him, then so be it. I can do this, I know I can and I will succeed!!!!!!!!!!!!

The above picture is what I think I will use for Christmas pictures (unless a better one is taken at my nephew's wedding on Saturday.) this year. I just wish that the boys were actually smiling with teeth, not this crap that they are pulling. Oh well, I tried. I also got to use Nichole's fancy camera. It's cool. I'm beginning to think that I need one. Nah, I'll just borrow hers when I want "nice" pictures.

Hugs
Kelly